Dandelion

Growing up is really tricky. Even for our friendship’s life. After graduating and intern/exchange I realized that catching up with my friends is not as easy as it was. Before I can always see them every other week and it was easy to arrange a 4-hours-girl-talk session where we joked, laughed and shared our stories. These days it was a bit challenging. As a talk-active, social person that I am meeting my friend could not be done within just 30 minutes. I turned hyperactive and will talk for the least 2 hours which I now found to be challenging to do during weekday and sometimes during weekend too! With everyone now attending everyone else’s wedding during weekend quiet time of catching up should be scheduled beforehand. So here are some catch-ups that I don’t know why but feel like I need to post just so I won’t forget about. My girls!! First of all is…..with my two girls!! We are supposed to be five girls but one is now doing her internship and another one is an

Among others I visited before this orphanage visit is a wake up call for me to reflect on. Sahl ibn Sa’d reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “The one who cares for an orphan and myself will be together in Paradise like this,” and he held his two fingers together to illustrate. Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5659 I think the hadith already explain how important taking care of orphans is, I mean I am 24 and I can’t comprehend myself to imagine how empty and sad it will be without my parents. Orphanage has a very special place within me, I feel calm and relieved every time I spend time in such place, condition later I found to be physiologic as doing good deeds actually have rewarding effect on our brain. Despite its brain-rewarding effect it is crucial you see, to do the good deeds no matter how tight and packed your schedule is as by doing that we are actually investing for our after life and in some sense it gives us meaning and the

If there's anything I think I didn't learn enough during my medical school time it will come to this : Dermatology, Ophtalmology and RESEARCH. I remember it was one of my senior who told me to chill and having "the time of my medschool life" during this block because it was rather easy and not as busy as the next block which is Cardiorespiratory, so I kind of having it easy and involving a lot in organizations and events. I even went to Semarang for LKMM Wilayah and arranged the Plan of Action Project on Maternal Health where we invited doctors and midwifes to give a talk in a village. It was all fun but little did I know that it wasn't really that fun years later to discover that not just the block containing only the very basic of research knowledge it is also that I will eventually having more interest research. As you may have known (or not haha) I have been working this past 5 months in Cardiology research department in Sardjito and slowly I lear

Around three months ago I went to my bestfriend’s Hippocratic Oath Taking ceremony. It was two weeks before my UKMPPD and while walking into the room, the question popping up : Am I going to happily marrying my job? Because a lil bit different from other jobs, being a doctor means that you take the job for a lifetime. You are everyday a doctor for the rest of your life. Amidst the happiness and all, the question gave me the chance to picture a wedding, because it's true : before  sumpah  you kind of prepare anything : You study for UKMPPD, for the OSCE and all and you wait for that day when you finally taking your oath to do your job. Marriage plays the same. The one day happiness that comes with a lifetime responsibility. Taking picture, wearing kebaya and make-up, walking with gamelan, taking picture and feel happy knowing that it is YOUR day. Yet, slipped behind the felicitation you receive is the fact that you're on your own for the rest of the journey, and be it

As a high school student, I am totally clueless. Clueless to the level of having no idea why am I even exist so when I finally get into medical school I kind of "just go with the flow" muttering things like "I want to help people" to everyone that asked me why I want to be a doctor without any intention to actually live by the words. I remember vividly how happy I am to have new friends all around, those that stay my best friends until this very day : exploring jogja, freedom of finally living on our own, joined organizations - First year excitement. It was basically a fine life to live but I knew deep down that something was missing, something within myself and it is the journey to find that something I have lot to do with this place. During weekdays or even weekends on my first year I usually passed this part of the campus on my way from the dorm to the faculty (vice versa) so I got familiar with this place. It is here where I started to think ab

Have you ever planned something and promise to deliver your job on time to your boss? I am supposed to, tomorrow but nah, life won't be interesting if things just worked out perfectly, right? As for now, I am an intern in Sardjito. I love my job, my bosses are brilliant (especially my bu boss - men I need another post about her) and though the workload is heavy and I have to work overtime, I am perfectly fine. There will be an upcoming exciting event within the next weekend and everyone is busy about it. Including me because you know, I usually did not bring my job to home unless necessary. But tonight is so different, I am so optimistic about finishing the job. The night was clear, the stars were bright...Ah, really what could possibly prevent me from nailing the job? So after dinner and some home-stuff to care about, I started to work, there are two works so I started on the almost-finished one, then I left somewhere but when I came back the laptop was off, I though it was

As I sip this coffee of mine, a Gunung Kelir type My mind has decided to think about you; Your presence and your eyes It's soft yet strong - both are in your words Humble yet affirming - your attitude need no talk Deep yet bold - that brilliant mind of yours Firm and whole. Complete as one. But even more what make me miss you it's not all of those It is your laugh and voice The silly and clingy you Your jokes and what not  .  . Now if it wasn't too much, may I ask you once? Why is it that every time I think of you it is the "better me" that I want to become?

Selamat lebaran! So how many “Syawalan” question that your relatives, old-school friends and just about anyone else you met once a year, have asked you this year? In case you wonder what a syawalan question is, here’s a glimpse : When you did the minal-aidin salam and these people decided that it would be fascinating to ask you “kapan nikah? Calonnya mana? Kok gemukan?" questions. Yup, the kind of question that we received from an aunt we haven’t met for months or years. Aunt, why do you have to swept-off our minal aidin wal faidzin salam we did just now? I am not sure if I actually have to forgive you with what you've just asked....Hahaha Talking about the syawalan question, surprisingly a survey has been conducted about it, and guess what's the hated-most question is : Too right you are! Among all, the "Kapan nikah" one is the most hated. Is this also the one that you hate too? For me (this is not my most hated but, much more of a jaw

Eyes fixing at your screen, face looks all serious. No, it’s not that we’re waiting for Net-a-porter free shipping or champions league final match (If that’s ever means something for you) but at that one particular website hoping that the “Lulus” word will popping out right beside your name while the internet taking its time to load the pdf/picture. Pffftt it is such a torturing-mixed feeling, don’t you think? The UKMPPD result is supposed to be announced within the next five days but then there is this rumor says that it will be announced tomorrow. Not that I am nervous or palpitating to see the result, but much because my fingers are sooo itching it can’t stop (magically) typing the website address on my phone, even the default setting on my phone is recommending it as my personal favorite website. Errr, sorry smartie-phone-system I think you got it wrong. I mean really, has anyone ever sets an UKMMPD website as their default favorite? Like for what, do you regularly che

People say that a woman’s life is changing when she is having a child. I think us, aunties’ start earlier. Well at least, mine is. My life changed when my sister in law having her children. My first nephew was born back in 2012 and I can’t come home because it was in the middle of my exam week but the second was born 2 days before I started my clerkship and guess what, I flew back home just to see her and carry her for the first time. The bound has grown ever since between us two. She was such a baby! Talk-active and friendly and know how to steal my heart. Duh. Just how weak am I to those damn cute eyes! During my preparation days for UKMPPD she was staying here for a couple of days and every time I went home, she’ll run to the front door to greet me and call me bibi (a local name for aunty) with such a bright expression and all my tiredness of sitting still from 8.00-15.00 will magically disappear. I oftentimes driving forth and back home, spending 45 minutes driving a

I bet most of you guys have known Afi Nihaya already. Nope I won’t talk about her or giving any “response” to her post, Warisan. But I think this girl is pretty cool because if she is not there won’t so much respond to her post or responds to a person who responds to her post or another respond to the person who respond about the person who responds about her post. Phew, even writing all these makes me tired already. Anyway, talking about media social and the respond-ception (if that makes any sense) do you guys know that MUI recently releasing a fatwa about Hoax, hate speech and fitnah in social media? Our attitude is already that threatening and within the edge, MUI has to release a fatwa about it. If you are interested in reading the fatwa, you may want to head up to this . I have to admit that there are lots of hatred and hoax posts nowadays which I've given up about already. People are saying harsh, bad words to each other as if the one they're talki

Have you heard about London Bridge attack? I was checking twitter timeline (Yes, I am twitter person since I found that it is such an informative social media) when I read the news and gosh, did my heart not shattered into pieces reading it. The tragedy took place in London Bridge when these coward terrorist struck pedestrians with their truck and continuing to look out for people at nearest bar and stabbed them. Currently there are 7 deaths and more than 40 are injured you can read it  here .  It isn't just London of course, there are Afghanistan and other places as well and also in Indonesia where the military is tightened the border security as some terrorists are escaping from Marawi, Philippines. These attacks (especially those done in the name of a religion) left me speechless. I tried my best to understand and correlate it but lost. I mean, how is it that you killed human, -Allah's creature just like you- spread terror and hatred (even w orse one could

We all know this : Majority of medical students are bunch of competitive nerd, because really who else would you find in a café on a long weekend discussing hematopoiesis? Ehehe I am eavesdropping right now.  So you may imagine when it comes to FINAL OF FINAL OF FINAL (Gosh we have too much exam really bhahaha) exam called UKMPPD everyone has gone nuts, now suddenly everyone has bundles of questions that they’re bringing and digging into everywhere. When I look at the calendar I then realize that my days are passing so quickly like nothing before but cross checking my daily to-do-list (I am a forgetful person that needs my to-do-list above all) I have to laugh at myself (the irony!) because I almost have no life with daily routine like this : Preparatory Class morning to afternoon then discussion till drop. Go home half awake. UKMPPD is a thing, really. If I thought that I may have been study enough, UKMPPD proves me that I couldn’t be more wrong. Being a determined kid tha

Thalia meluruskan kakinya dan membiarkan napasnya memburu. Ia berselonjor dibatas trotoar barat sambil melihat orang-orang yang berlalu lalang : Pasangan yang lari bersama, pria muda yang lari sendirian, anak SMA yang asik berfoto. Ia sudah selesai dengan rutinitas joggingnya sore ini di lapangan salah satu universitas terkenal di Yogyakarta yang memang biasanya dijadikan tempat masyarakat melakukan aktivitas diluar ruangan meskipun sebenarnya yang ia maksud dengan masyarakat lebih tepat disebut anak muda. Rutinitas ini sudah ia jalani sejak dua bulan lalu, “biar bajunya muat” begitu yang kerap ia ucapkan kepada Ninda temannya yang kebingungan kenapa dara ini tiba-tiba kepincut olahraga. Thalia merogoh sakunya, mengeluarkan handphone dan memencet tombol unlock. Tidak ada pesan masuk. Pukul 17.23. Ia memejamkan mata. Menyalakan lagi handphonenya dan membuka aplikasi pesan, mengecek apakah Raka mungkin menghubunginya. Raka Mahesa, tunangannya. Lulusan universitas yang sama denganny

Tuhan selalu memberikan jawabannya dengan cara yang terbaik : Masih keinget banget rasanya deg-degan sebelum pengumuman grup koas, men katanya grup koas ini jauh lebih menentukan dibanding urutan stasemu atau apapun karna kamu bakalan ngehabisin ratusan harimu bareng orang-orang itu aja dan sekalinya kamu dapat yang ga klop : Welcome to the T-rex jungle. Koas berasa ada di tengah hutan yang ga bisa di waze/google map, ga ada makanan, ga ada wifi dan ada T-rexnya : Jadi se-ga banget itu. Saat hari-H tau temen-temen grup koas yang kepikiran langsung "Oh oke ga ada yang ga banget sih. Beberapa ga kenal tapi kayaknya lumayan aja" 12 belas orang yang keliatannya normal dan baik-baik saja ini. Waktu itu belum ngerti kalo mereka  cuma keliatannya  demikian. Your "Dek Koas" for the next 21 months, yeay! Foto diatas diambil setelah pembekalan hari terakhir di RSUP Sardjito a.k.a masih jaim dan belum terpapar kehidupan koas yang....ugh. Gitulah.