Dandelion

Around three months ago I went to my bestfriend’s Hippocratic Oath Taking ceremony. It was two weeks before my UKMPPD and while walking into the room, the question popping up : Am I going to happily marrying my job? Because a lil bit different from other jobs, being a doctor means that you take the job for a lifetime. You are everyday a doctor for the rest of your life. Amidst the happiness and all, the question gave me the chance to picture a wedding, because it's true : before  sumpah  you kind of prepare anything : You study for UKMPPD, for the OSCE and all and you wait for that day when you finally taking your oath to do your job. Marriage plays the same. The one day happiness that comes with a lifetime responsibility. Taking picture, wearing kebaya and make-up, walking with gamelan, taking picture and feel happy knowing that it is YOUR day. Yet, slipped behind the felicitation you receive is the fact that you're on your own for the rest of the journey, and be it

As a high school student, I am totally clueless. Clueless to the level of having no idea why am I even exist so when I finally get into medical school I kind of "just go with the flow" muttering things like "I want to help people" to everyone that asked me why I want to be a doctor without any intention to actually live by the words. I remember vividly how happy I am to have new friends all around, those that stay my best friends until this very day : exploring jogja, freedom of finally living on our own, joined organizations - First year excitement. It was basically a fine life to live but I knew deep down that something was missing, something within myself and it is the journey to find that something I have lot to do with this place. During weekdays or even weekends on my first year I usually passed this part of the campus on my way from the dorm to the faculty (vice versa) so I got familiar with this place. It is here where I started to think ab