Background: Staring at a peeled-beige wall, waiting in an empty office for my dad’s death certificate. Facing another heartbreaking moment because two weeks ago, it never crossed my mind that I’d be writing my father’s name on a paper declaring his death. Gritting my teeth as hard as I could to keep me from crying. Was it a successful method? I won’t answer. Has anyone ever told you that when you cry too much, your head, eyes, nose, and even salivary glands can hurt all at the same time? Well, they can. I don’t think I’ve cried this hard since elementary school. I’m the kind of person who usually observes my thoughts and feelings, thinking, “Huh? Interesting” and sitting with them for hours until they settle. Yet this time, grief swallowed me like a tsunami. Those thought-watching processes didn’t stand a chance. My father’s passing came as a shock. I won’t share the details of his death, but the news arrived on an ordinary day as I prepared for my ICCU shift and for a while, my w...