Dandelion

Growing up is really tricky. Even for our friendship’s life. After graduating and intern/exchange I realized that catching up with my friends is not as easy as it was. Before I can always see them every other week and it was easy to arrange a 4-hours-girl-talk session where we joked, laughed and shared our stories. These days it was a bit challenging. As a talk-active, social person that I am meeting my friend could not be done within just 30 minutes. I turned hyperactive and will talk for the least 2 hours which I now found to be challenging to do during weekday and sometimes during weekend too! With everyone now attending everyone else’s wedding during weekend quiet time of catching up should be scheduled beforehand. So here are some catch-ups that I don’t know why but feel like I need to post just so I won’t forget about. My girls!! First of all is…..with my two girls!! We are supposed to be five girls but one is now doing her internship and another one is an ...

Among others I visited before this orphanage visit is a wake up call for me to reflect on. Sahl ibn Sa’d reported: The Prophet, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “The one who cares for an orphan and myself will be together in Paradise like this,” and he held his two fingers together to illustrate. Source: Ṣaḥīḥ al-Bukhārī 5659 I think the hadith already explain how important taking care of orphans is, I mean I am 24 and I can’t comprehend myself to imagine how empty and sad it will be without my parents. Orphanage has a very special place within me, I feel calm and relieved every time I spend time in such place, condition later I found to be physiologic as doing good deeds actually have rewarding effect on our brain. Despite its brain-rewarding effect it is crucial you see, to do the good deeds no matter how tight and packed your schedule is as by doing that we are actually investing for our after life and in some sense it gives us meaning and ...

If there's anything I think I didn't learn enough during my medical school time it will come to this : Dermatology, Ophtalmology and RESEARCH. I remember it was one of my senior who told me to chill and having "the time of my medschool life" during this block because it was rather easy and not as busy as the next block which is Cardiorespiratory, so I kind of having it easy and involving a lot in organizations and events. I even went to Semarang for LKMM Wilayah and arranged the Plan of Action Project on Maternal Health where we invited doctors and midwifes to give a talk in a village. It was all fun but little did I know that it wasn't really that fun years later to discover that not just the block containing only the very basic of research knowledge it is also that I will eventually having more interest research. As you may have known (or not haha) I have been working this past 5 months in Cardiology research department in Sardjito and slowly I lear...

Around three months ago I went to my bestfriend’s Hippocratic Oath Taking ceremony. It was two weeks before my UKMPPD and while walking into the room, the question popping up : Am I going to happily marrying my job? Because a lil bit different from other jobs, being a doctor means that you take the job for a lifetime. You are everyday a doctor for the rest of your life. Amidst the happiness and all, the question gave me the chance to picture a wedding, because it's true : before  sumpah  you kind of prepare anything : You study for UKMPPD, for the OSCE and all and you wait for that day when you finally taking your oath to do your job. Marriage plays the same. The one day happiness that comes with a lifetime responsibility. Taking picture, wearing kebaya and make-up, walking with gamelan, taking picture and feel happy knowing that it is YOUR day. Yet, slipped behind the felicitation you receive is the fact that you're on your own for the rest of the journey, and be i...

As a high school student, I am totally clueless. Clueless to the level of having no idea why am I even exist so when I finally get into medical school I kind of "just go with the flow" muttering things like "I want to help people" to everyone that asked me why I want to be a doctor without any intention to actually live by the words. I remember vividly how happy I am to have new friends all around, those that stay my best friends until this very day : exploring jogja, freedom of finally living on our own, joined organizations - First year excitement. It was basically a fine life to live but I knew deep down that something was missing, something within myself and it is the journey to find that something I have lot to do with this place. During weekdays or even weekends on my first year I usually passed this part of the campus on my way from the dorm to the faculty (vice versa) so I got familiar with this place. It is here where I started to think ab...

Have you ever planned something and promise to deliver your job on time to your boss? I am supposed to, tomorrow but nah, life won't be interesting if things just worked out perfectly, right? As for now, I am an intern in Sardjito. I love my job, my bosses are brilliant (especially my bu boss - men I need another post about her) and though the workload is heavy and I have to work overtime, I am perfectly fine. There will be an upcoming exciting event within the next weekend and everyone is busy about it. Including me because you know, I usually did not bring my job to home unless necessary. But tonight is so different, I am so optimistic about finishing the job. The night was clear, the stars were bright...Ah, really what could possibly prevent me from nailing the job? So after dinner and some home-stuff to care about, I started to work, there are two works so I started on the almost-finished one, then I left somewhere but when I came back the laptop was off, I though it was...

As I sip this coffee of mine, a Gunung Kelir type My mind has decided to think about you; Your presence and your eyes It's soft yet strong - both are in your words Humble yet affirming - your attitude need no talk Deep yet bold - that brilliant mind of yours Firm and whole. Complete as one. But even more what make me miss you it's not all of those It is your laugh and voice The silly and clingy you Your jokes and what not  .  . Now if it wasn't too much, may I ask you once? Why is it that every time I think of you it is the "better me" that I want to become?